6/07/2026 Hate when mentally ill anyone (MEN) just decide to commit a mass tragedy because they feel jaded and bitter and most of them are just cluster of personalities and autistic and just want to hurt people for literally no other reason. Lousy bitches. You could just kill yourself btw it's free, but no just mak it eveyone else problem, right ? All though, I'm not a burger, I do feel pranoia when outside, not particulary mass shooting but stabbing or car run over, so scary. I don't really know what I'll do, because whatever I'll do will be ever enough to prepare in situation like this, and unfortunatly, I'm not Akira Sato, so I can't do much... Aren't you autistic and are a cluster A ? Nah, not even close, I mean yeah, I took test online but it doesn't mean anything, it's like trying to get prescrip meds because an online test decided you were histrionic or bpd. Plus, I'm not autistic, just socially awkard, which in this day and age, who isn't ? Thate's cope lol I know u, you're cluster A and C Well, at least, I'm not a narcisist or have bpd True XD I like how u drew urself and Nick there, psycho cutieXD Lmao, don't even, you're so weirdd I like the left drawing... good react pic, hold on ? sharp teeth...❤︎ how u draw gun 2 LMAO AHAH, so dramatic, like he is really going to kill himself tho ? No, of course no, he just doind it to make (me) regret (not working btw) Ah I see... but, Yeah ur right, but it is true, what u said, how they just have untreated mental illnesses and just make it everyone else problem :( gets scary bc of them I know ! And I get if you are mentally unwell, but you try-make sure you get help, and planning a massacre is not what autist/clusters/mentally unwell do (well, if your delusions are strong enough, yeah and so far in the deep end, yeah but yk). Yeah yeah still, so sad, I ry sometimes for the victim, especially when they're still in k-12 :( :(
4/07/26 So... where I have been ? What happened during these last months ? Not alot actually happened, except for a hat wave in the country, so that's was fun. Thankfully, it had calmed in the past few days, and I could get a little bit of rest, thanks to the lowering of the weather ... lol Could finally sleep in peace ! Not much peace, but a ittle peace nonetherless... Anyway, like I said, no much happened, and I didn't do anything much, excepted stay inside (this is what you have to do anyway during heat wave),a nd enjoy whatever I have at home, whsh I'm not really complaining because I have quite few hobbies, however, because of the heat, I wanted to just lay on my bed and lounge around like a cat. Mreow, what's not so mreow was all the femicide videos I've seen on the front page of YT. I already have my theory that whatever pieces of electronic is already silently spying on you, because of all the weird coincidences of something showign up on my phone when I think about said thing. Actually scrap that, because I know it's real, it even has been proven with Alexa and Apple (then again, it's Apple, so no big surprise). But having a bunch of femicide and just women abuse video is just unsettling, and I konw it is to sent a message. I don't particully know why, but then again, you don't need a reason to murder people, especially women, because it's pretty much accepted that it will be a part of life and society, and I/we can only pray that we make another day and nothing happen to us when we go outside as well, or anywhere... Obviously, just watching these kind of videos is NOT good for morale and will taint your worldview, it's pretty much like watching gore 24/7, you will becaome jaded and bitter, and for me, when I seen some of these horrific image back in 2016, it had made me extremely paranoid (doesn't help that I am apparently "Cluster A"). I remember, I never felt so bad and weak in my life, excepted for my childhood, but that is beside the point anyway.
Anyway, all the videos I watch are in USA english, so I'm pretty much a burger lol, but I was a bit of an Americaboo growing up lol,... Oh well. I'm convinced the American gouv/or CIA are trying to sent me a message. Ok, well not truly convinced because all of this quite schizo lol and I'm pretty sure they have better things to do than trying to scare a french with femicide YT recommandation, but it sounds crazy enough to be believable REMINDER THAT I AM NOT SUICIDAL I HAVE NOT DESIRE TO KILL MYSELF AND HAVE NOT SUICIDAL IDEATIONS THANK YOU Sound crazy like how food were used to described little children in the mails, but that's was pretty obvious, I think the earliest I have heard about it was in a 2018/2019 ? video. Lousy Amerifuck shady ass gouv Not the point anyway. I have been researching alot of mass shooting as well (again, welcome back 2016/2019), well actually, just about Charleston Church, was pretty shooked when I fist heard of it back in 2015, still am, but a bit more. Dumb high school drop-out hurt innocent church-goers because he self radicalized himself online and he's slow (but as much as Cruz, lousy retard, both of them), I still think about these 9 innocents who died, to this day, well anyone really who died in thses tragedies, I think about theirs families and how they're coping with the loss and eveything really,... A t least, Roof didn't kill himself (wanted to, but didn't do it, good). Hard to think he's in hiw 30s now, shesh, eveything just go by so fast, no ?
Anyway, to calm myself abit down, I have been playing Cave Story again and Warioware touch, which was really nice (the dropped "minigames" are pretty weird but I appreciated them), I have been splurging a little bit much as well on summer clothings as well, but oh well... Anyway, I think that is all, first entry there anyway, I need to keep it up lol and I hope I post prtty often here I need to anyway, it's good to unload your cardridge lol as well my journal, but I don't remember last time I wrote in it XD. Vass would be here too, sometimes not all the time though... I don't partically know how to finish this entry so I'm not going to.
hey gwen, read your blurb, and omg, that's very stressful, I'm here if anything :) Go out w/ me and we can talk a little, staying inside will festering your already growing paranoia, and I get it, the world is scary and cruel, esp for women, but you need to get out and have abit of fun. Sent you text, call me when you can.
